(Somewhat) Candid Camera

There is a certain level of self awareness that suddenly becomes glaringly apparent the second a camera is pointed in your direction. Someone is taking a photo of you simply walking, an action we do how many times a day? But suddenly a camera is lifted to the eye and walking becomes the most impossible task and many ask, "How do I look natural while doing a task I do naturally everyday!" I have always found beauty in candidacy, a certain candor attached. Honesty. Truth. What have you. For that has always been something that has held much charisma for me, truth. Perhaps because so many people fear it. And for me, film has always offered a whole other level of truth, of feeling. Perhaps why I love film as much as I do, therefore I tend to prefer to shoot my "personal" life on film. Not all I shall share for that would hardly seem appropriate, and a girl has got to hold some sort of mystery in her life. So here are  some frames as to where I try and catch the people that occupy this life with me before they suddenly become self aware and change their more natural stance to become what they think I want them to be. But then there are also some film frames from shoots within the mix, see if you can decipher the difference...

And as always, here are frames from the past few moments of 2017. Late. As per usual. Gotta love that delayed gratification time.  

The first image upon a roll wasn't in Los Angeles at all but from a lost roll from my time in Harlem. So here is Erica being unamused by my nostalgic nature. 

The first image upon a roll wasn't in Los Angeles at all but from a lost roll from my time in Harlem. So here is Erica being unamused by my nostalgic nature. 

On the same roll, a Robin Plotnik sits in her kitchen from the summer before last. 

On the same roll, a Robin Plotnik sits in her kitchen from the summer before last. 

Even when your first frame of film understands how "lit" your best girl is. I can barely use the term "lit" in a sarcastic manner. I once had a first date with a guy who kept using "lit" in a very serious and non ironical manner and the only thing that kept popping up in my head is that, "You are ilLITerate!" We never went out on a second date. 

Even when your first frame of film understands how "lit" your best girl is. I can barely use the term "lit" in a sarcastic manner. I once had a first date with a guy who kept using "lit" in a very serious and non ironical manner and the only thing that kept popping up in my head is that, "You are ilLITerate!" We never went out on a second date. 

When my internal light meter decided to go out and I had to do a mental guestimation. Not to bad if I do say so myself. 

When my internal light meter decided to go out and I had to do a mental guestimation. Not to bad if I do say so myself. 

The incomparable Kayleigh Gilbert, ladies and gents! 

The incomparable Kayleigh Gilbert, ladies and gents! 

These posts are brought to you by my incessant coffee addiction. And apparently, Blue Bottle Coffee. Sponsor me, I need all the coffee! 

These posts are brought to you by my incessant coffee addiction. And apparently, Blue Bottle Coffee. Sponsor me, I need all the coffee! 

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Gennapher is without a doubt, one of the dopest humans I have had the pleasure of meeting. 

Gennapher is without a doubt, one of the dopest humans I have had the pleasure of meeting. 

Cinestill film, slaying my soul. One frame at a time. 

Cinestill film, slaying my soul. One frame at a time. 

Camera duels. 

Camera duels. 

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Oops, I am in Oregon. Again. 

Fairly certain, this dog understands how to find his light far more easily than most actual humans... 

Fairly certain, this dog understands how to find his light far more easily than most actual humans... 

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Its a rough life. (Notice how I did not make the pun on ruff?) 

Its a rough life. (Notice how I did not make the pun on ruff?) 

Christopher being Christopher

Christopher being Christopher

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This is the parental figures view. My studio view is of an alley. I do believe that they win. 

This is the parental figures view. My studio view is of an alley. I do believe that they win. 

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Once a celebrity shooter. Now dead bird papper. 

Once a celebrity shooter. Now dead bird papper. 

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Always gotta focus on the sandwiches and never on your pretty friend. 

Always gotta focus on the sandwiches and never on your pretty friend. 

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A series of photos that Natasha hates, that I love. I win. 

A series of photos that Natasha hates, that I love. I win. 

Neither of us can recall as to where this photo was taken. But none the less the only thing I dislike about it is that you can not truly grasp the beauty that is Erica Barrios. So here followed are two photos that truly personify her. 

Neither of us can recall as to where this photo was taken. But none the less the only thing I dislike about it is that you can not truly grasp the beauty that is Erica Barrios. So here followed are two photos that truly personify her. 

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When the Jesus of Street Photography first returned upon Los Angeles. 

When the Jesus of Street Photography first returned upon Los Angeles. 

Jordyn. 

Jordyn. 

Robin. 

Robin. 

Once more, Kayleigh. I could photograph her face everyday and be thoroughly content with my life choices. Such a beautiful soul. Inside and out. 

Once more, Kayleigh. I could photograph her face everyday and be thoroughly content with my life choices. Such a beautiful soul. Inside and out. 

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And so, I ended my 2017 on a rather beautiful note. I got to watch the union of these two beautiful souls. They got married at the LAX courthouse and I was lucky enough to be honored as the one who was able to fully photograph it. As I am writing this, at the nearing end of February of 2018 my year thus far has been nothing but internal struggle which then translated out into my more physical world in a more macabre tonality where I am making the conscious decision to have these be the darkest months of the year ahead. But none the less, I could not chose a better tone to end my 2017 on than that of witnessing love. 

And so, I ended my 2017 on a rather beautiful note. I got to watch the union of these two beautiful souls. They got married at the LAX courthouse and I was lucky enough to be honored as the one who was able to fully photograph it. As I am writing this, at the nearing end of February of 2018 my year thus far has been nothing but internal struggle which then translated out into my more physical world in a more macabre tonality where I am making the conscious decision to have these be the darkest months of the year ahead. But none the less, I could not chose a better tone to end my 2017 on than that of witnessing love.